.I was a misshape mistake misfit.

hidden_angst @ 2005-01-02T21:34:00

2005-01-03T02:35:03Z

new lj.

no_control__

add me, i add you back

layin on me like a lobster.

2005-01-01T21:12:41Z

so last night was pretty cool. we got in some trouble.. i dont have a lot of pictures but theres some. it was pretty interesting. i kissed russell at midnight. hehe hes the greatest.

our attempt at fireworks...

adlissas a rocker. woohoo

brents a pretty pretty princess!!

adlissa and i decided to be twins.

lots of fun. for the most part anyway.

happy new year! : D

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-30T10:04:00

2004-12-30T15:27:19Z

i went to russell and adlissa's house yesterday. it was mucho fun. and of course i have pictures.

russell and adlissas dog, champ. awwww

adlissa infront of her and brents wall. shes so cute.

brent and adlissa.

the lake. i thought it looked pretty.

adlissa smoking. daaaamn shes hot.

russell and i. i looked squished. lol

brent, adlissa, and...... Senora Moss...

brent and adlissa again. aww

russells a badass

adlissa and brent in jail....not the first time this has happend. haha

..i have no idea

aww sorry...i promise no more kissy pictures.

yes it was wuite exciting. theres deffinately gonna be more from new years.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-28T09:48:00

2004-12-28T14:48:39Z

hopefully this will work.

i got camera crazy.

but owell deal with it.

woohoo!!

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-27T18:49:00

2004-12-27T23:49:51Z

oh man.
someone please tell me how to put pictures on this.
thanks

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-26T12:14:00

2004-12-26T17:16:52Z

going to aiken today.
woohoo
i havent talked to russell in like 3 days.
i want them to come home.
hopefully it snows more.
i missed it.

adlissa(or russell) if you read this call me on my cell.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-25T11:26:00

2004-12-25T16:29:49Z

not that any of you care but heres what i got for christmas.
:D
-A DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!!!oiagfaghsgoahsgh
-clothes
-undies
-bras
-a hat
-socks
ohhh yeahh
its a lot cooler than it sounds.

MERRY CHRISTMAS KIDS!!

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-24T13:04:00

2004-12-24T18:06:48Z

thrumyreflektion: i have a tikle in my throat
XNoiseAndKisses7: haha im sorry
XNoiseAndKisses7: ...untickle it
XNoiseAndKisses7: lol
thrumyreflektion: oh ill untikle it.
XNoiseAndKisses7: yeah you will
XNoiseAndKisses7: youll do it good
thrumyreflektion: yeah i will
XNoiseAndKisses7: you untickle that throat adlissa
XNoiseAndKisses7: you do it
XNoiseAndKisses7: hard
thrumyreflektion: oh ill do it hard
XNoiseAndKisses7: yeah you will
thrumyreflektion: harder than a rok
XNoiseAndKisses7: you do everything hard
thrumyreflektion: lol
XNoiseAndKisses7: oh man
thrumyreflektion: adn i liek it hard
XNoiseAndKisses7: yeah you do
XNoiseAndKisses7: who doesnt
thrumyreflektion: hmm..
thrumyreflektion: donald duk
XNoiseAndKisses7: haha deffinately not him
thrumyreflektion: he goes for the gentelness
XNoiseAndKisses7: deffinately
XNoiseAndKisses7: he likes it soft and peaceful

also adlissa had kids when she was 500 and her kids will be spoiled ass rotten until they are 347.
oh man.
were deffinately cool.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-24T09:22:00

2004-12-24T14:33:48Z

so yesterday was just awesome.
russell<3, adlissa, and brent came over to celebrate christmas :)
before we opened presents we invited patrick
so we wraped up some random things for him.
before he got there my parents made me come downstairs.
my dad got us all cell phones for christmas.
i dont know why we got them yesterday but owell.
anyway so patrick came.
then later we opened presents.
i got a distillers cd (sing sing death house), a squidward watch, a ninja, a nutcracker, gum, a bottle, and a party popper thing.
deffinatly the coolest presents ever.
then jenn came over for a while, and brought her ferret.
our ferrets were supposed to play together.
but i dont think they liked eachother.
adlissa did my hair. it was hot.
brent played his lovely songs. (not sarcasm)
we ate.
we talked.
oh man..it was great.
god i love those guys.

not to be lame but my life is great right now. :)

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-21T11:46:00

2004-12-21T16:47:54Z

having an elburrito day today. :)
its gonna be hot.

i miss russell and adlissa.
so im going to go eat a fried bologna sandwich and drink diet mtn. dew :)

3 days till chirstmas!! :D hehe

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-20T19:38:00

2004-12-21T00:40:47Z

i dont like today.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-20T09:31:00

2004-12-20T14:36:37Z

i dont know.
i dont feel right today.

i need a hug and kiss from russell.
a hug and conversation from adlissa.
some hot chocolate.
a blankie.
and a lifetime movie.

this is a stay in the pjs kinda day.

the syptoms of letting go

2004-12-19T14:08:48Z

so yesterday russell,adlissa,and brent all came over. like usual.
it was fun of course.
we watched how to lose a guy in 10 days.
and roasted marshmallows with noodles over a vanilla candle.
then we all went to sleep.
brent woke russell and i up because adlissa was sucking her thumb.
she was quite cute. lol
then we threw stuff in my fan.
adlissa taught us a magic trick.
then they had to leave because adlissa had to babysit. :/
yes it was quite the crazy afternoon.
then last night my brother got a ferret.
its so cute.
if i get a digital camera for christmas ill take a picture :)

i want presents!

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-18T09:43:00

2004-12-18T14:46:46Z

ive never been happier.

i really hope this lasts.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-17T10:22:00

2004-12-17T15:49:04Z

im so glad its the break.
so yesterday after 3rd block me russell adlissa and brent all went to brents house.
we hung out there for a while.
eugene and evan came and they played.
it was really good.
im not lieing.
then brent had to go to therapy and we went to the movies.
it took russell and i an hour to get fries because were both difficult.
then brent and adlissa came after his thearapy.
michael was supposed to come,we were gonna talk to him.
but of course he didnt.
sowe came to my house.
everyones parents were mad for some reason.
but we hung out here for a while.
then before we left my parents made me play a message on the answering machine.
and it was some kid threatening all of us about michael.
i hate him so much.
but whatever.
hopefully i can see russell today. because hes awesome.

the truth comes out.

2004-12-15T22:45:05Z

this is pretty much where everyone stands.

i love russell, he makes me happy, hes great.

adlissa is awesome and she is my best friend. i can tell her anything. i hope its the same for her, but sometimes i wonder. i hope were good freinds for a long time.

brent is cool and he loves adlissa.

kelsey is so cool but we dont talk much anymore.

courtney is really cool too but we never talk.

maddie sometimes annoys me and we dont really get along anymore. (im sorry if that upsets you)

chris is funny and i trust him with my problems.

michael is an a*s*s* hole and i hate how he's become.

now you know how i really feel about you.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-13T16:56:00

2004-12-13T21:58:20Z

im having a sleepover.
it just has to happen.
its not definate but oh im hopin.

if you comment your invited.

its a big baby..

2004-12-12T14:33:08Z

this past week ,as i said before, sucked a lot.
i got grounded so i thought the weekend would suck too.
but my mom was cool and let me go out yesterday.
so adlissa, brent, and russell picked me up.
brent stole a green ball from the front of my neighborhood.
then we went to adlissa/russell's house.
russell and i watched movies and such.
brent left somewhere in the process.
then adlissa went and picked up jenn and brent.
(i dont know that's still confusing to me)
then we went to my house, took some pictures and such.
and went to the zoo.
oh man that was fun.
russell bought me a blue light thingy. :D
some people followed us around and scared us.
brent had a baby.
adlissa and brent had a baby.
and we ate burger king.
it was a crazy night.

anyway. i cant wait for school to be out.
hopefully this week will be somewhat better.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-09T19:20:00

2004-12-10T00:23:47Z

yeah so this week has sucked.

pretty much everyone(-a select few) is really pissing me off.

people are overeacting about dumb things.

im ready for school to be over.

im sick.

im tired.

im scared.

my parents are gay.

im just thourghly frustrated and i dont know what to do.

i need to get out..for a whole day not just a few hours.

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-07T18:08:00

2004-12-07T23:14:26Z

yes i know i already updated today but ahh well.
today was cool.
nothing to bad happened.
my head hurt as usual.
just a boring day.
i'm so ready for school to be out for break.
i have so much crap to do.
its annoying.
i just know this week is going to suck for some reason.
hopefully im wrong.

later kids.

psssh..im bored

2004-12-07T21:51:31Z

What is your favorite..
gum: winterfresh
restaurant: wendys or waffle house
drink: diet mt. dew
season: fall
type of weather: cool/cold
emotion: happy/important
thing to do on a half day: hang out with people the rest of the day
late-night activity: phone
sport: skateboarding i guess
city: beufort or austin
store: gas stations
When was the last time you..
cried: saturday
played a sport: to long to remember
laughed: after school
hugged someone: after school
kissed someone: after school
felt depressed: idk
felt elated: uhhh
felt overworked: today
faked sick: a few months
lied: this morning
What was the last..
word you said: pssh (not really a word but owell)
thing you ate: doritos
song you listened to: that drop it like its hot song, on the way home.
thing you drank: tea
place you went: school
movie you saw: something about mary
movie you rented: a beautiful mind
concert you attended: warped
Who was the last person you..
hugged: russell
cried over: danny
kissed: russell
danced with: ..michael
shared a secret with: adlissa or russell
had a sleepover with: adlissa and jenn
called: my mom
went to a movie with: russell, adlissa, brent, jenn
saw: my mom
were angry with: my brother
couldn't take your eyes off of: russell
obsessed over: probably russell
Have you ever..
danced in the rain: i wish
kissed someone: yes
done drugs: sort of..
drank alcohol: yes
slept around: no
partied 'til the sun came up: i wish, again
had a movie marathon: never..
gone too far on a dare: my birthday party last year
spun until you were immensely dizzy: of course
taken a survey quite like this before: yes

now im cool

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-05T10:19:00

2004-12-05T15:38:28Z

great weekend so far.
friday adlissa, brent, russell, and i all went to brents house after school.
we hung out there and adlissa straghtened everyones hair and such. lol
then jenn picked us up and we went to cvs and carolina wings.
the movies was boring so we went to my house and hung out for a while.
my mother took russell and brent home, and jenn and adlissa crashed here.
oh man it was great. we had lots of fun. :D

then saturday brent and russell came over again. :)
jenn left kinda early though. :(
but adlissa and i stayed in our p.j.'s all day.
it was mucho fun.
danny called while they were here.
they got to talk to him for the first time since it happened.
it was pretty sad. so pray for danny guys.
even if you dont know him. he needs it.
and if you do know him WRITE HIM!

so they all hung out here all day.
i think adlissa lives here now.:)
she's deffanately the coolest.
i'm hoping i get to see russell today. casue hes awesome.
but i think i have to put up christmas decorations.:/
the worst part about christmas.

soo basically my life is perfect right now :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN! I LOVE YOU!! :D

hidden_angst @ 2004-12-01T21:25:00

2004-12-02T02:26:05Z

im seriously getting fat.

and i'd give up forever to touch you.

2004-12-01T22:23:22Z

nothing feels right anymore,
i don't know why.
nothing is wrong, and nothing happened.
i just feel sad and/or empty.
i feel like i'm losing, or have lost all my friends.
that just sucks.
i know that only like 2 people are going to read this.
no one will think anything of it.
i don't want sympathy.
i just want someone, anyone,to tell me what i'm doing wrong.
i dont know. :/

hidden_angst @ 2004-11-30T16:36:00

2004-11-30T21:37:08Z

am i really what you want?

.sometimes i wonder.